Sometimes our life threaten us,screw us up,and set us back faraway from our dream.
It's like your ship wrecking and sinking down to the sea and being in trauma,pain and paralyse from your own destiny that what's call 'A LIFE' throwing to US.
but it's not last long,just don't give up.Imagine people who're in worst situation like cancer patient.If they give up they die.You're situation I'm suppose are in better shape than them.
I've one student.She's suffer from leukemia and one day she's even can't walk but she's decide to do operation so she can be back.When I think about her it make me feel so good about life.It's because she's so positive even she's suffer from cancer and it's side effect.
After I coming out of hospital for a month like I said to you in previous entry.
Dad tell me never set a goal in life again because it is making me so fragile in this part,and past time if I didn't reach some goals I'm upset with it.I've ever upset when people less favourite my art.
it is very contrast from the classic book I'd ever read 'Magic of big thinking'
Anyway 'Happiness' can be a goal in life.
Even I'm totally broke from hosptal admit this time.
I didn't want any pitiful because I'm now happy for real.
I'm not pathetic person who babbling about how they're in bad luck.So bad luck dude,'the fault may be your star'
The best thing for me is 'I still alive'
Sometimes you have to 'let it go' like Elsa song.Of course you can set goal,do your best,let it go.Even if you reach it or not you still being happy and don't envy others people's life because everyone have suffering in different stuffs.Each one have their own sadness,fear,painful.=just like you
I'm being release from a rope that's tie with my brain call 'popular' and 'being rich'
It's such ashame for an artist to mention 'rich' and 'fame' right?
I accept I ever want it,but now,no matter.
but I didn't want to be a starving one either.
I just have childish thought before, Oh.if I being rich may be I can draw everyday without worrying about financial situation anymore,just random stupid thought,then after I going out from hospital.......
I realize that I didn't have to wait untill I'm rich to drawing what I really want!
I just have to do it now.
but I'm never have financial problem before until I go to hospital.It's been so long this time.
Now I've my dad support and I continue develop more product and online courses instead teach fulltime.
I can live happily althought,a situation I've to face here.I may risky to take a pill for whole life,
but it is much better than hospital and thanks for your encouragement from you guy.So 'famous','dignity','proud' didn't have anything left if you're working so hard and end up being freezing vegetable on bed.It's so pathetic than beiing a little poor but stay healthy.
I'm not sure I deserve to teach about this because I'm suck at it,but it's how I really feel.Of course poor is not good either but better than die or have a disease because of working so hard.Then you have to take a lot of pills.I'm just worrying about you guy so I wrote this article.