Hello everyone.I disappear for very longtime,just would like to update some journal about my life currently and I would like to note what's going on with my life here.
I rarely drawing much lately.I'm sorry for that if you +devwatch me for image.I lack inspiration to drawing with major artblock althought I set my resolution in this years to drawing more but it's seem like I didn't draw for several month,because I already discover my new passion.It's 'teaching' and 'entrepreneurship'.So I focus on that and that's reason,and now I'm stable in my little thing already like I said in various journal pass time.Actually I spend around 3 years to reach stable state.Now I've got income quite equal to fulltime job each month but I've no boss.
Finally I quite abandon 'illustrator' path.Not that I give up in artistic path.I just think it's not for me.I prefer not to draw with an order.At least I wish I can choose only project that's interest me.I find that to be illustrator,sometimes you have to draw althought you don't want to draw because you have to work,compare with being entrepreneur or self-employ I can do anything myself,without an order.Anyway when I do fulltime job in drawing path I find it's fun at very early state,because fulltime job you draw without financial concern much.If you're freelance illustrator.You have others thing to concern such as your cashflow eachmonth,your clientele.So,if you would like to happily working I recommend go on fulltime job path 'till you have experience enough to strike in freelancing path.
Life without a fulltime job can be scary and hectic at first time,if you didn't experience this before. I think for average people if you can find your own path,you can manage to stable in 2-3 year of operation with enough client list.
I think It's good that I can find my path already,in order to teach,like I said it's not about your drawing skill but it's communication skill
This years is important years because I being self-employ for 5 years.It's reach 5 years in march,which passing already.I've ever heard that if you reach 5-10 years mark in any business.It's mean you're survivor.
I face with major setback several times.Include admit in hospital 3 time in 3 years.I've question myself where is happiness and a lot of question about life seep through my brain. I even question about meaning of life.I wonder why somany bad situation happen to my life again and again.I question myself stuff like this.Even now I also question myself a lot of things.I still believe something happen to your life whether it's good or bad,happen for a reason.It can make you grow as a person.If you learnt some exp. and try to observe what universe try to teach you.Every 'action' will come with consequence or 'reaction' like physic rules.It's law of cause and effect and karma,but I never regret my path.
because what's happen to mylife fostering me to have today,with I discover myself and my way already.
I think it's quite hard for me already to goback to working in full-time job again because I prefer this path.It's path that I'm in total control and have full responsibility in my life.
In case you're now being self-employ or would like to take this path.I think it's not easy but If you can do it.It's open a lot of opportunity to your life and it will open your eye to experience how to deal with major setback when you doing your own thing.
So I hope you're all success with your life,no matter which path you taken.
Hi everyone.i would like to announce that,now you can preorder Eisenblume,my collection of artwork for more than 5 years,a4 size,full color,morethan170page at indiegogo site.
Cover/you will see thickness of book
t-shirt and notebook
black and white artbook agnus dei
You will be surprise if you didn't use indiegogo before.it is crowd funding site.I didn't have much fund left to making it's available for international convention this year because printing cost is so high and I have few copy left for Thai postage order,I've sold out my stock for comic season already,and it need some fund to reprint for international order because I guess it isn't enough stock if I decide to go to international convention.So it will end up as using indiegogo,and I 'd like to test a water too this preorder successful I'd consider making my original comic project available by use indiegogo again.So this is important step and I need your support,if you can't support by fund,please spread word I will be so grateful.m(_ _)m,more update and video coming soon staytune
To order,it's easy just sign up at indiegogo site,click contribute in sidebar then you will redirect to PayPal to checkout and this is special because every order at indiegogo site will get a lot of special perk available if you pledge for preorder.
Preorder period From 6 jan to 9 feb
For available perk and set please check and pre-order at indie gogo here [link]
Milestone and Stretch goal 500$ goal reach Add new postcard from 5 to 7 design for perk g and beyond. 750$ goal reach add new postcard from 7 to 10 design for perk g and beyond. 1000$ goal reach add new postcard design from 10 to 15 for perk g and beyond. 1500$ fund raising goal complete for Thankyou I will draw new illustration And make it limited print for perk g and beyond. 2,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add full color tutorial and process booklet a5 size for perk g and beyond. 3,000$ stretch goal reach.I will shift from a5 size booklet to a4 for perk g and beyond. 3,500$ stretch goal reach.I will add pocket size of calendar,add more page to tutorial booklet for perk g and beyond. 4,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add plush doll keychain,add more page to tutorial booklet.for perk g and beyond. 5,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add Dust jacket. And slip case design for both soft cover and hardcover edition.for perk g and beyond. 8,000$ stretch goal reach.I will making 6 new art for calendar and making calendar available for perk g and beyond. 10,000$ stretch goal reach.Perk I oasis and up will recieve another random watercolor painting. 15,000$ secret need to unlock.I need to reach this goal first to tell you what you will get.
7/1/13 Update list of backer Thankyou very much for your contribute --------------------------------------------------------
Friederike vulpius /perk e magnolia James shay/perk I oasis Jessica du/secret perk Anna Tsocheva/perk b little flower Magion88/perk c full blume Amber Mclaren/perk f desert rose Britney sack/perk g bird of paradise
preview of artbook eisenblume,collect more than 160 illustration in 171 page,full color.There're personal work and commission work include.Beautifully layout.Available in comic season booth C14a in 23 dec,international and online order coming soon.stay tune There're limited edition like ever coming in bigger package,have t-shirt,notebook and postcard set.I'll get all the item after convention,so online order will after 23 dec.Please keep update on my journal to see whether it's available for ordering yet.
This entry is just relax post from personal life. It's almost end of years already so I think about new resolution next years. I think about balancing personal life,improve drawing and teaching
I complete my resolution this years ^^,by reading almost 40 business related english book.Stuff i read such as entrepreneur life,branding,marketing and related stuff.Althought it isn't my first language but I think my english kinda improve a lot this years.I finally can write long article.Sadly,my amazon kindle was out of order few day ago.;___;,use iPad to read is eyesore and glare problem.Amazon kindle is the best for ebook read.
I think I focus on my business-entrepreneur side this years and my business (teaching) going really well.I hardly update my deviantart page much but focusing on facebook page update which I update most of sketch there. [link] You can watching some unpost work there.
This years I didn't improve my drawing much and I hardly have time for drawing full-cg pic because I've to update illustcourse site,making teaching video in youtube and stuff.I manage to do less teaching schedule next years.This years my teaching schedule quite tight.I teach almost everyday. I hope I can focus on improve my drawing more.I've plan to develop my class also.
As you may know I being self-employ for almost 5 years. It's reach 5 years in march 2013. I being freelance illustrator for 2 years,then establish new site (illustcourse.com) and I earn steady income from teaching for 2 and half years At this point I think I will do commission work only work I really wanna do. For 2009-2010 I living by doing only commission from DA which I appreciate a lot,with support from you guy I've today.m(_ _)m
If you asking me how I can survive without fulltime job. I think you need to learn about business side of work, Such as how to deal with client,how to manage cash flow etc. In my case is very extreme case,I left fulltime job with some credit card debt, Which I paid for buying a lot of books.i got no financial nest egg but I can live.it's just you need to cut unnecessary expense such as cloth,cosmetic etc. Past few year I can paid bill,take care my mom and have some saving without financial concern already.
Stuff I learn these years is sometimes worst thing happen to your life happen for a reason.It's take you to better state and making you better person if you notice and working in what's life signal to you,just believe in your intuition.,don't worry and be happy and be better everyday ,a lot of great event will happen to your life finally.
I going to national book convention past week and get a lot of interesting book,one book I find somany years it's 'man's search for meaning' by dr.frankle.i've time that I feel really depress and asking myself question what's a meaning of life and I see some quote in this book that light my fire.So it's great that I can find this book already.
I think this year quite plain for me,no exciting event,and my life is being routine already,go out for teaching,go back home reading,go to running if have time in the evening,updating site if had time.
For some reason,I've delete some journal of mine,somes are accidentally deleted which I've to said sorry to all of you but I save some in my ipad.I really thankyou for your feedback previous entry,really appreciate for all comment so far really
and Thankyou very much for all comment and favourite past 9 years.I develop a lot because of you guy.Deviantart is great community and I can't find better word to Thankyou you all.This place also give me a lot of inspiration when I lack some.
I manage to do fullcolor artbook this years I 'll try my best to make it's available.Schedule to release art book is December this years in comic season event,more detail about preorder coming soon.
past time I've ever wonder that how could we measuring anyone successful? Honour?rich,Pride or any factor that we use to measuring success For me There're people ever asking me that. Do you think you're successful yet?.It's hard to answering this question because I success somany thing but I don't think I'm successful.
Success is subjective.It's depend on people. If you ask me,How could you measuring success. I've to question you back. What you really want in your life and what's the most thing you value?
My sister ever said about 'OSHO'.He's philosopher.He said that people who being president is like they climb the ladder higher and higher then they can't go further nor they can going down because they don't know what it's gonna end. so every successful people have suffering also,even president who's the country leader. That's why I believe successful didn't always bring you happiness,success is addictive you want more salary,higher position,some cool gadget,honour occupation,fame,house,car because it's 'success meter' That's how this world can translate what's successful mean. Then we believe that if we success then we're happy.
Past time I've ever believe, to feature in media,have my own pocketbook release. That's how I call I'm success. I've ever thought about featuring in more media,have more pocketbook release,owning house and car full of wish like other people. It's like I'm now walking in to the ladder with no end, I've ever thought If I'm more success,richer,then I'm happier. I value myself from what I earn each month I'm still hunger in success.Then one day I start to realize that I'm not happier. Then something wrong about my thought I didn't understand happiness quite well until recently.
I do less work. Do something I enjoy such as reading,writing,spend time with family in book happiness advantage said that people always misunderstanding that successful will bring you happiness, actually happiness will make you more success.
talk about happiness,then I've something to said about my work.I've ever thought about stop drawing comic because I would like to focus on illustration work,I've ever thought that comic isn't something I'm good at.
Finally,when I've got spare time I end up drawing some scribble comic because it's little happiness.I just thought that comic isn't something I'm really good at so I would like to stop drawing then my sister said "Why people think we should stop doing this or that,just doing something you feel happy is ok enough,isn't it?" There're some junior asking me this question also,whether she want to stop photograph to focus on illustration they I reply, no need to stop doing something because you want to focus on other thing because sum of it make you being 'you', you may be a photographer who really good in drawing,or illustrator who really good in photograph.
Late time I've time to considering about myself more. I do less work because my feeling that I've to compete with myself to be better is gone,I just wanna draw,wanna write because it make me happy,the joy when I'm being child comeback again. If you asking me. What's mean success to me. I'll answer 'having job that I love with stable financially,have some freedom to make choice,have time for family,got happiness and enjoy life when I didn't care about fame or successful, something I use to measuring success isn't a lot of money,big house,fancy car,designer cloth,or honour job but it's 'freedom' and 'happiness'
Different people have different meter to measuring successful. If you have more need,you will got high meter, you'll get tired to snatch those thing and didn't even realize where's happiness, we're all eagering to catch thing that symbol of being successful because we believe that we'll happy if we success, but true is the more you tied yourself with those symbol which is social meter for success,the more you attempt,like a rat who spining in a wheel didn't realize that if it stop running the wheel also stop.
If you'd like to success, you need to reset how to measuring success, it's not higher salary, higher position, big house being rich but settling at being happy in each day of your life, Easier you happy with yourlife,the more you success. Stop thinking that being rich first,have more fame,have girlfriend or boyfriend,got love back,get married then you will be success and then you'll be happy because those thing isn't always end up with happy,but bring suffering to you also,suffering from scare you will lost them someday,suffering from saving those thing to be with us. the day you stop chasing successfull is the day you being success,asking yourself you're running on some wheel or you stop already.
I've ever asking myself this question,when I feel very depress
The reason people depress because thing didn't go to be like they wish. It's because you've an expectation for something and you didn't get it.
I have some story to tell you. Which I heard from another source.
Once upon a time there've god of happiness gathering, They decide they want to hide happiness From human. One god said that 'we should hide in highest mountain so human Don't reach it.' another god said 'no,human will find it' Then another one said 'we should hide in deepest of. River. Another god said 'no,human will find it' 'then we should hide happiness in human heart' After that human who didn't know happiness is inside his heart Won't find happiness.
Most people are waiting for something in life to make them happy, Such as get married,got promote,being rich etc. I would like to said if you didn't be happy for today, You will not gonna happy much when you get those thing in life Because it just a 'condition'.if you waiting for condition To make you happy you have an expectation, And you depress when you didn't get it or lost it, Such as you're broke,you're fired,you lost someone you love Of course those thing will get people depress but My believe today is 'this too shall pass' Everything come to your life whether it's happiness or sorrow, There're not last long.it will pass finally.
There're 2 kind of happiness,outside and inside.
Outside happiness is materialize you can buy easily with money Such as new gadget,cloth,car,house etc And inside happiness which you can't buy, Because it's state of mind you have to fulfill it with yourself.
It's easy to be happy you just need to focus on happiness Inside yourself more than outside because it will make you Didn't Need to waiting for something or some condition in life to make you happy.
Just find something you love to do,someone you love To spend time with such as friend,family or spouse, Someplace you love to go,some music you love to hear, Anything that you love will lead you to happiness finally
So hope you guy can find happiness, If you can find just look inside yourself. It's something always with you but you didn't notice it.
Hello guy,I already have instagram account,you can finD me by account name meisanmui.I will post sketch and gallery there,btw instagram is photo sharing app for iPhone and iPad,if you didn't have you can view image in my Facebook page [link]
I would like to write some english here to brush my rusty writing in english. I practice reading a lot past time by reading novel,nonfiction english book. I read about 20 book english nonfiction book in 2011. Also practicing listening english clip. I aim that I will never use word 'poor english' in my dictionary again. So I disappear for awhile and I've another site to develop also[It's illustcourse.com] and that's alone very eating my time.
New year has passed.It's been so fast for me. My resolution this years is nothing much.I would like to develop my english to the level that I can use english naturally. You know,It's very hard for Thai people like us, because English isn't our native language. It isn't every day use so It's depend on how people eagering to develop their English,and something very stuck on my mind because I feel inferior everytime I see friend who use english as formal language,and I've got embarrassing time because I didn't understand english language well.
A lot of thing happen past years wish is valuable lesson,but I hardly drawing lately because I quite busy with teaching work. When I do teaching work I feel like my past time ambition in drawing was gone. It's not bad either because It's shift my world for working for myself to working for making student better,and lately I'm being more like an entrepreneur which I have to develop other skillset beside drawing like past time,and I see young budding artist and it's very motivate. A lot of young people this day are so talent.I gasp when I see their art some people is just in their secondary but their art are so awesome and there're a lot of energy in them.
I quite fullfill on my goal past year. I already release pocketbook and little explosure in Thai media because of my writing. Actually I love to write quite equal to drawing. It's just different form of art. Which I'm amazed because typo can make you cry or laugh, but like I said,my ambition like past time is quite gone. It's not that I didn't have major goal, It's just my own translation of word success is a bit change. I think about balancing life,freedom and family more.
I'm on self-employ for 4 years and this year,and 2011 are stable year of my life because I've got financial stability already[not that I've a lot of saving but I've stable income like being fulltime employee.] It's very long journey and I learn a lot.Althought I face with a lot of bump in my life,so many time I'm stuck in a rut, but It's ok now.I thought I learn to be happy in a little thing I do more,
I think I'll do less illustration work this year because I would like to develop others skill important[especially,english skill] Anyway you can see my sketch and doodling work at my facebook page. [link] thankyou very much for listening to my rambing.
My Flood maiden T-shirt available for international order
Due to severe flood situation in Thailand.I make special limited T-shirt for sale. 100% profit after minus manufacturing cost will donate to Thai Red Cross to help flood suffering people in Thailand. I will scan payment slip or proof after I donate.
Sorry for inactive lately I'm very busy with teaching illustration in Thailand. I focus doing less illustration work lately because I would like to have time for 1 illustration like I'm in full-time job.
After busy working on my manuscript.Finally the book already publish in Thailand. It's name 'ลาเจ้านายไปตามฝัน'.I'm very proud because It's first time I'm in 'writer' role which my dream,I do my own illustration in book which simple style not elegant,a lot line like ever but in comic-essay style. I practice writing by writing blog almost everyday past-time. Some have got feature in front page of exteen. <one of largest blog community in Thailand> So this book can release because editor saw my article and he like them.
It's 3 years that I didn't have full-time job and can live!without steady job from any publisher either, I've to thankyou Da friend which supporting my financially, buy print,book,commission me. I would like you to know I appreciate it a lot! I'll never go this far without your guy help. I admit I stuck financially first time I go freelance because I've got some dept to clear,but after a year past I learn a lot and It's ok.
Anyway It's far journey but short than I thought.
I have some major setback past time. Now my life is good.I've ever ask myself, after I face with setback in life.
I've ever ask myself,where's my happiness, I do work I love.I got a lot of free-time, I 've time for my family but I still feel something missing in my life. I read a lot of book about happiness.
Happiness is like success I think. We won't find it's if we want it, It will came when we feel we didn't want, and that's happiness,when you didn't want it you'll satisfy your current status, the word satisfy is equal to happy it's something always inside you.
For Thai friend,you can buy book in local bookshop. It's available in bookfriend store[siam inter multimedia publishing] meisanmui
As you know about Japan's tsunami&earthquake I gathering some fund to donate for Tsunami & Earthquake suffering in Japan, by doing this I will do watercolor commission. 100% of commission fee/5 slot available(total 250$) will donation for this.I'll take printscreen shot after donate and post here. All commission will donate to Redcross [link]
Each watercolor commission are 50$, (plus 12$ for shipping worldwide if you want) you will get full illustration painting,1-2 character(in 1 pic),waist up or fullbody Tool I use is whitenights-Sennelier-Holbein(artist grade) watercolor,Canson montval 300 gsm Winsor&newton Sable
SLOT 1. ีupdate I've already donate 50$(31 GBP) to british redcross site
2. I've already donate 60$(36 GBP) to british redcross site
note to me brief and attach reference link if you interest, and then please send payment to paypal address firstname.lastname@example.org, or If you want to DO-IT-YOURSELF donation.Please go to donate 50$ to donation site and send proof of donation by printscreen/save in jpg then e-mail me at email@example.com. If you want me to shipping your illustration then please send 12$ to paypal address firstname.lastname@example.org