We have been taught to get good grade in school,get good job,have family,having house,having car.
Our life almost like an instant noodle..follow that's above purpose,which didn't know who're the one who're making that purpose?
We don't know what's our real purpose in life?Which way we gonna choose.
We've been brainwash by media,to be successful in life...
You have to get bighouse and car,being wealthy,have fancy job title.
We judge ability of child from university and school admission,
graduated from great university.
We judge child's smart from grade in school,university.
Children who get bad grade in university,have been calling stupid,
some children think they may not being a successful person in life.
I'm the one who ever think so...
I'll tell you my story.
I have ever been... both 'top student' in classroom,and 'poor grade' student in classroom before.
Most children know.How to get good grade in school.How to get better in their drawing.
It's like everyone know how to lose weight,but most people can't do.
How to lose weight,there're only 2 rule,which's hardest thing to do.
It's 1.control calories of what you eat 2.excercise
It's about 'defeating yourself'.
When I'm in primary school.I'm top in math.score 40/40
My teacher telling that I'm excellent and gifted in math.
but in late primary...
I study from another math teacher.Which's making me hate math already,because he scold student when student can't do.Outside classroom he's good person...
but I can't learn math properly and understanding lesson by study with him,After I study with this teacher.I always got low grade in math..(around C) and continue being so until my late secondary,and I get poor grade in every subject using calculation.Anyway my grade point average still high because I scored A in other subject.
So,I decide.If I have occasion to teach in my life.I won't do the same thing like this teacher.
Anyway I have to said thankyou to him now,because He making me understanding some principle.
When child have been scolded.There're 2 thing happen.
1.They're getting better a lot. 2.or they're getting worse a lot.
because,to be scold or look down on that child.
It's touching their 'self esteem'.
If they have high self esteem,they will getting better a lot.
If they have low self esteem,it will pressing them down.
Children who getting better because they have an ego, an ambition to winning what's teacher scold.They will have high pressor.When you scold these type of child.It's like filling energy to rocket which have high acceleretion above earth gravity.
If you asking me,Is it necessary to scold children.I think different people have different way to taught.
If you choose to scold anyone.You need to observe which type of that person?
Some case.You may scold,but didn't identify that person directly.
In university,around third year.Faculty of architecture.
I remember teacher's scold...Teacher said.
'If you didn't put intention in class,you didn't want to be an architect,just get out of here.
This isn't your place'
My hair standing already.my body get cold.
Teacher didn't identify anyone,
but I'm the one who didn't want to be architect,but I just would like to graduate in this faculty.
This teacher.name A.foo.(I respect her a lot)
If you didn't came to classroom in time.She will lock the classroom door.
Since then...I really put intention in A.foo class...
Which is just few class in faculty,I put intention to,
I sit in front in classroom...
There're 2class study with A.foo
Landscape architecture presentation...I got B+
another one is La research...I got A
because I scare A.foo a lot.So I really put intention to study her class.
(about another subject...please keep reading)
Back in secondary school...I also top student in class...
I'm not diligent person...but I just know the rule...to 'get good grade'...
1.put intention in classroom,take note and read it.
2.read when there're an examination.
like others student.I read only 1day before examination,
but I've good memory,and have some sense to guessing choice in test.
I have only one objective in child period.
It's entering Chulalongkorn university(C.U)
(It's consider at one of top U. in Thailand)
I choose faculty of architecture...because it's involve with drawing...
I choose math-science path when I'm in secondary school.
If you choose this path in Thailand at that moment.
Faculty of architecture is only one choice.
I have no others life purpose.I didn't know what's occupation I'm gonna choose yet.
I get nightmare several night.That's I can't pass entrance examination.
but finally I pass,and can entering C.U
but our life isn't end only entering university...
After I entering university.I didn't have others life purpose yet,only graduate there.
Another thing is ...Before entering university.I didn't really understand what's architect do in professional.
I start seeing others illustrator's drawing in the internet...I start practicing drawing since I'm in first year of university.So I study just enough to get by.
I put most of leisure time in drawing.Althought I didn't know what I gonna do because in that's period illustration field in Thailand isn't grow much like this,and to working oversea in illustration field seem impossible at that moment.
Every evening,around year1-3 in university,I didn't have my own computer.
I start CGing by finding which computer lab I can use.I use computer in faculty of science,
and practice cging by using mouse to coloring.
but there're something happen,which is one event that change my life...
I really hate one subject.It's call 'building material and construction'.
This subject have 2 part..
It's lecture and drafting construction plan.In first year teacher gave assignment to drafting by follow construction plan.I really hate this.So I just try to finish it as soon as possible.
Result of my grade is really consider ....as.amazing(...fail)...It's 'D-'( almost F...)
There're friend teasing me about my grade...
He call 'MUI. D-'. (mui is my nickname)
I remember that moment...it's in elevator...
A lot of friends are in there.I really feel shame.
After that.I feel angry my friend inside,just only inside.
I didn't counter action to him.I just smile.
and I decide that day..
'I will be successful person,in life'
but today I really feel grateful to that friend(name will keep secret)
And I have 'Tetsuya Nomura' as my idol in very first year of University,
because I really like Final FantasyVII.
I would like to be character designer or working in concept art field like him,
Althought I don't know how I can be at that period.
While I'm in university...I have occasion to play one game...
And very addict to it.It's 'Raknarok Online'
This game teaching me 'philosophy in real life' to me...
Everyone have same start.It's being novice.
After that you have to choose your path.
There're merchant(level up being blacksmith),swordman(level up being knight),archer(level up being hunter),acolyte(level up being priest),thief(level up being assassin,mage(level up being wizard)
When you want to be any job.You have to collect your level,doing quest
and up your status until you can be that occupation.
There 're 6 status.
Strength(str),Agility(agi),Dexterity(dex),Vitality(vit),Intelligent(int) and Luck
I chose to be Swordman at my first job...and choose to be vit-str path.
After you choosing that path you have to up your status along the way,
and if you choose to up other status that didn't necessary in that path.
It's making your character isn't the best in that path.
I play alone mostly,so I love to play character that can stand alone.
There're one job that I feel amusing when play.It's 'fighting priest'
It can stand alone also,but this job can help people.
to update status in this job.It's different from others occupation.
Firstly.You have to choose vit or agi path.
I choose agi.It make me have to up agi,int,dex.
There're several status than other job.
This is really resemble to our real life.
First,you have to choose your job...and your path...in job..
and then you have to learn skill and update status in that path.
If you update status that isn't involve directly to your job,or update any unnessary skill,
you may not a person who're really great,or greatest person in that path..
but you may like a person who choosing to be 'fighting priest'
If you choose to be fighting priest,you can up your level until you're level99
or you can be the top1% of people in that field.
fighting priest can't fight better like Knight.
fighting priest can't heal better like priest,
but fighting priest can stand alone,can help friends in party,
althought isn't the best to do that thing.
fighting priest isn't the best character in PVP(player fighting with player)
fighting priest isn't the best character in guildwar,
because this job can't make good damage like wizard,
or protect friends like knight.
If you want to PVP or play guildwar.Which is team playing.
You can always making new character,
you just need time to level up your character.
It's like 'you can have more than 1 jobs in your life'
If you want to be the best in that field,you just need to level up to second class...
and up your level until you're level 99.
If you choose to be artist in studio,level up you will be senior artist
level up again you're an art director,level up again you're a senior art director.
It's a promotion in our real life.
but somebody may not want to be the best in that path,
but would like to try other job...such as
create merchant in another character to sell stuff other character collect,or find money.
in game you can levelup merchant to job2,blacksmith level99...
because time in game it isn't long,around 1 month if you use bot.(cheat)
but in real life...our life isn't that long...We have limited time on earth.
So what you gonna do is know what you have to focusing on?which skill you have to improve.Which is it's depend on 'your life purpose'
In game if you cheat,game master may ban your ID.
In real life you you cheat,you may be get arrest by police or end up in the court.
It isn't every principle in game can apply to real life.
Anyway I know how to improve skill and status from playing this game.
because I'm a poor grade student in university.
So I have to analyse my strenght and weakness,while I'm graduated,
to choose most appropriate job for me.
I analyse from every subject I got A,B+ from my whole life...
-I'm good at every drawing subject.
-I'm good at language.(thai,english...oh...I'm sorry but...in my country I consider at good from average because in thai we use thai at first language.)
-I'm good at design fundamental.
subject I got B
-Every subject that has to use memory...
C and lower than C
-I'm not good in architectural design.
-I'm not good in every subject that have to calculate and about number.
-I'm not good in construction.
So...If I choose architecture field.There're less percent chance to be successful.
I may end up mediocre...So I started to decide,apply job in game company and being concept artist and working in illustration field since then.
Conclusion(I'm sorry to repete if you're already know me...)
-Now.I'm an entrepreneur(solopreneur)
...doing job I love,can takecare my family.Have good life.
-I have occasion to be concept artist in thailand
and have once occasion working with really talent artist in IFS studio Singapore in short period.
(which is...I consider as one of the best thing happen to my life.
It's really consider as big step because... I didn't graduate directly in art field,and I'm not a 'straight A student' or graduate with honour in university.
In Thailand there're belief that,if you would like to work oversea you really need to have 'a good grade'..but illustration field you won't get job from your grade but from your portfolio)
-my drawing feature in various media both thai and international
-my writing manuscript have been publish in Thailand.
-I have occasion to be on some Thai cable TV.
(Anyway If you asking me.Am I successful yet?
Althought I have ever been in some international media
but I'm not ...consider at 'big international star' yet,
anyway My level of achieval in life currently,can inspire some fellow illustrator in Thailand.
I think I'm just going far than I thought.)
In our real life,if you want to be successful in any field.
You have to be a person who 'giving grade' to everything you do in life...
What you love,give grade A
What you like,give grade B+
What you are good at,give grade B
What you feel SOSO,give grade C
What you didn't like,give grade D
What you hate,give grade F
If you would like to be the best in your field...
Improve skill of what you love,what you like,what you're good at,along your life purpose,
and job you choose.
It's like 'status' and 'skill' in game you have to level up.
Ignore what you feel SOSO,didn't like and hate.
You can hire someone to do it.
If you choosing job you hate,didn't like,or feel SOSO.
choose to improve skill you hate,didn't like or feel SOSO.
You will lost your time in life to spend in something that's really have meaning,
something that can make you happy.
Different point from game is...you can choose to learn any skill in this world.
It's depend your life purpose.
In real life have various skill than game you have to improve such as,drawing,music,sport etc.
Our life are limited,If you want to success,you have to learn to focus.
If you would like to live by doing what's you love,you have to be great in that field.
If you want to be wealthy by doing what you love,you need to be top1% of that field.
so...What you have to focus in your life.It have simple equation...
'what's you love,like'+'what's you're good at'+'have a large enough market'
If you love,or like but you're not good at it.It's harder to success in that field.
E.G I love to sing,but my voice isn't good,and i'm not good at singing,
It's less chance to be successful.
If you love,like,good at,but have really narrow market,you won't survive to do that thing.
E.G You love to take care eguana,you live around suburb of Thailand,
and you decide to open shop to sell take care eguana's equipment.
It have higher chance to fail,because market isn't large enough,
but If you open your site to sell international.You have higher chance to success.
Have you ever asking yourself questions.
What's really important thing in your life?
Why you're born on this earth?
What's everyone want is 'happiness'
but most people chasing 'image of successful'
and forget how to live happilly...
We think...just get good grade in school,get good job,save money
and... late in our life,
we can retire and do what's we love to do,
and realize that we have less time to really appreciate 'happiness'
real meter of successful have to be...
'Who're living happier,considering as more successful person'
the lesson school and University isn't taught you is...
Hello,everyone I've went back from my 4 day trip at Wat Pha Thart Pha Son Keaw in Petchaboon Thailand,with family,brother sister,mom,and friends Noo.From this trip I think something 'crystalize' in my mind.It's kind of refreshing me and big break from my busy schedule(teaching everyday).
I wrote this in english first,may be I have occasion to translate in Thai later.
I didn't wrote in English for awhile,sometimes I stuck to find word to describe situation but I would try my best to do.
In this trip I met with Phra Ajarn Amnaj Ophaso.Unlike past time(This is my second time in this Wat) I didn't have occasion to interact with him.This time I have occasion to do job in Wat.We're(I and group of people) went down to hut for Phra Thudong(monk that have seperate them away from temple).It's so tough road,high bump and hard to reach to hut.I can't imagine how monk can walk to the hut.Our jobs is to clearing leave and any messing thing around hut.
Phra Ajarn Amnaj is a monk and great artist himself,his style mixing between 'impressionism' and 'abstract' art.His art have decorate in temple all over the place,he's also design temple building.At former graduated architecture student myself.I think architecture of temple is beautiful,whimsical.I would like to write this journal at diary to remind myself what I'd learnt in this trip.
When I have occasion to talk to Phra Ajarn in this trip.I didn't wonder what's behind his thought which making him do art like that.
Phra Ajarn Amnaj have humor sense and he's philosophical person.I've learn something important about being an artist in this trip.He said artist this day want something like an overnights success which I've ever been talk about this my my journal at illustcourse.com awhile.I also don't believe in overnight success,you need dedication and put your full intention to what you do to be successful.
He said most people see what Michael angelo did and didn't realize Michael angelo have put very hard work to his art.Michael himself have ever said something like'If you know how much hard work I do,you won't surprise result I get'
He said about artist life.Will you pursue art if you know you won't have anything to eat tomorrow,will you exchange your life to be an artist?That's penetrate directly to my heart.He said young artist these day didn't have that much dedication.They don't want to risk their life to pursue art field.To be successful artist you have to put your own life on the line.You have to risk with everything you had.I'm a person who dedicate my life to art field,even risking and exchange with my own health so I understand what he's mean.
Then he tell me to draw something.It's sketch of tree.That's day I wearing T-shirt which I design myself.It's my own illustration work.After I sketch tree and let him see he said.
'Why it isn't look like what in you're wearing,do you know?'.It's put me in some thought.He said 'Because draw sketch from life isn't like thing you can prepare for'.He said digital art is draught,no spirit and real brush stroke,you can undo and erase what you have done.
I agree in some point I think traditional art can analogy to life.We can't 'undo' any mistake we had executed in past life nomatter how hard we'd like to goback or choose some new choice,and that's same thing with 'traditional art'.It's same charm.Note that in my T-shirt I do mixing digital and hand drawn.I think digital art are beautiful.I didn't think it's lack spirit like Phra Ajarn said.I just think sometimes traditional way is express more feeling even it's just sketch or you may think that call 'spirit' in art.Phra Ajarn believe 'brush stroke' mean 'spirit'.He like zen art also.He said Japanese Zen art is like you draw sword only once but it can take everything away with just one draw.
Phra Ajarn said sometime we need to sketch with pen to get feeling of something that unerasable.
He also asking me 'What if you have to draw what's present joyful state what will you draw?' I answer him 'May be flower and butterfly' .He answer me 'No,butterfly and flower.It's stressful not joyful you have to careful what's you've drawn will look like instead of joyful.Joyful you have to be sincere and put brush stroke in your mind'
and Phra Ajarn,he tease me about my belly,he said my belly dance when I laugh,and he call me 'dancing belly'.My friend asking that why I don't angry,it kinda harsh?.It's just because I didn't care about that at moment and I think what's he said is true also,about my belly.I'm quite obese at this moment.Anyway my family see humiliation in this and they think it's cute to call me so.Which I know what's my family reaction because I known them best.
Then Phra Ajarn said,'Sometimes,if there're man teasing you something he just would like to test a water or test you.If you can bear or control your emotion.If they teasing you it's mean you're an interesting person,or else they don't mind with you.There're some story about one woman,have other man in village teasing about her short or something like that.Then that woman said 'Those guy in village are ediot,why they teasing me?'...Later there're noone teasing her then she said 'Those guy in village are ediot,why they don't teasing me.'
Then he doing a sketch and said somany thing about life.
He said for man,instinct of a man is leadership,man born with leadership instinct and have to do what imbue in their instinct,for woman silent and innocent is the best weapon,because in old era man fight each others because of woman.I don't said I agree or disagree with this but I'd learnt something here.
He also said real successful person isn't boastful what they had.They choose to stay silent.Which is thing I also think long time ago.
If I met with other illustrator or artist I didn't tell or showing my art to them if they didn't asking because humble is important thing when being artist.If you didn't know 'level' of artist you are talk to,be humble is the best.Arrogant and over confident will destroy you finally.
Anyway you should have some self-esteem in your art.When people critique you with harsh comment.It's better not to angry with that,just proud of your art and take what's other said if that's good.That's way you learnt more.
Also education level or your accomplish in life,if you meet others people in a person.If that's person didn't asking you.I think it's best,don't tell them if you graduated from great university,ivy leage university.I'm a person who didn't think education matter at all.It's just paper which can guarantee you get a job in a level,but 'paper' or 'degree' can't guarantee your success in life.You will see somany people who didn't even graduated from university but are successful in life,e.g Anthony Robbin,Bill gates,Steve Jobs,Mark Suckerberg.It's what you do in your sparetime after study that can judge your destiny.If you said about education or accomplish without their asking ,you've risk two thing ...
1.That's person will have some perception about you.If they are in higher level it's risking they may look down on you.
2.If they are in lower level,they may feel bad about you,not everyone have these feeling but it's better to be safe.Some people aren't in good education but accomplish somany thing more than you so to avoid others bad perception about you,just answer what's their asking.
If you have to said about your accomplishment,be humble and choose word carefully.
I'd like to end my note here.If there're anything I'd like to said I will continue to do other journal but I think main point is include.I hope it's useful to your guy in some point.
Hello everyone. i would like to sharing some tips from my knowledge and this is entry I wrote in my site illustcourse.com which I decide to sharing here also.
I've ever being freelance illustrator for 2 years and half before I take the leap to be entrepreneur path for almost 3 years,so I would like to sharing what I had learnt.If you asking me,how about income in freelancing path,I would like to said it's OK.It's not making you get rich quick in this path but compare working hour with income I think it's quite decent.If you working hard,you will gaining more but I would like to said if you want sustainable path.You need to develop your own product,because it make you didn't have to depend on freelance job which you didn't know whether it will run dry.
It's good that I live in Thailand also.If you can relocate to some place with lower living cost.You may consider to do so because it saving you a lot of money in a long run.
and this entry I would like to sharing tips how to become illustrator without starvation.
1.You need to manage your income.
There're somany book in this topic,If you prefer safer path I recommend Dave Ramsey and Suze Orman book.I've ever got debt past time so I have to learn about somany financial book until now I got 0 debt,and have got some saving.You need to cut your income for 10% after you get it for saving and make it automatic save like you didn't see that amout of money. You need to seperate your saving account for 1)account for daily expense This account may tied with your credit card to paid your bill and some expense in your life. 2)saving account You need this account for your future.You may consider to invest money in your favourite financial instrument. 4)saving for your security You need this account for your own safety such as if you had unexpect event appear to your life such as accident or hospital admission.
You may consider to invest some money later if you have got some saving but If you know nothing about investment I would like to recommend you invest in mutual fund.
If you have credit card.Please paid full balance because it's high interest rate,around20%,like bank get warren buffet return from you,and before you use credit card to buy something which have payment plan you need to have that full amount of money before consider buying that.
2.Have multiple income stream.
You have got to make multiple income stream because it's safer for your life such as produce your own book,have your own product line or have another income stream with isn't depend only on job from publication,because there can be a lot of unexpect event occur such as company you working for stop hiring you.
3.Solid client base.
In order to be freelance illustrator or entrepreneur,you need solid client base enough to cover your expense and living each month.To expand your client base you need to focus,which group of client you would like to work with,company or normal person and focus only that group of specific client.If you didn't have client base yet,don't rush to leave your full time job yet because it's risky.You need to do expand your client base in your part time.Except you would like to resign instantly and fully expand you client base as the same time.
If you focus on normal person to be your client.You may consider writing blog or post in your favourite social network for collect client base.When you have enough client base.You don't need to run around to finding jobs because client will come to you,hire you or buy your product.
4.Marketing In order to survive in freelancing path you need to have entrepreneur,not employee mindset anymore.You 're your own boss, and frankly said sometimes you're worse boss because you didn't have motivation to working yourself which you have to learn to do that along the way.
You need to learn to promote your self in several channel to increase eyeball of people seeing your work and marketing is stuff you need to do in your routine althought you have client full in your hand.You have to manage time to do marketing,and youhave to do it even time you didn't need client.
5.find some fulltime job that let you draw This is basic,if you afraid starvation to have fulltime job,you will get steady income each month.It's safer path but when you do fulltime job,you didn't have 100%freedom and you didn't fully control your own destiny,and sometimes fulltimes jobs make you being careless to spending money because you will get salary each month.If I have something recommend.'don't depend on fulltime jobs 100%' because it 's risky.You need to spend time to develop something on your own in your sparetime,but you have to do it in a way that didn't affect with your performance in your job.
6.Think first,spend later You need to save and cut unnecessary expense.If you 're freelance illustrator you need to dropdown some of your livingstandard such as,normallyif you drink starbuck coffee everyday,change it to instant coffee at your home.If you normally spend your incomefor shopping cloth and cosmetic,cut this expense,save your cellphone cost,etc.
Hello everyone.I disappear for very longtime,just would like to update some journal about my life currently and I would like to note what's going on with my life here.
I rarely drawing much lately.I'm sorry for that if you +devwatch me for image.I lack inspiration to drawing with major artblock althought I set my resolution in this years to drawing more but it's seem like I didn't draw for several month,because I already discover my new passion.It's 'teaching' and 'entrepreneurship'.So I focus on that and that's reason,and now I'm stable in my little thing already like I said in various journal pass time.Actually I spend around 3 years to reach stable state.Now I've got income quite equal to fulltime job each month but I've no boss.
Finally I quite abandon 'illustrator' path.Not that I give up in artistic path.I just think it's not for me.I prefer not to draw with an order.At least I wish I can choose only project that's interest me.I find that to be illustrator,sometimes you have to draw althought you don't want to draw because you have to work,compare with being entrepreneur or self-employ I can do anything myself,without an order.Anyway when I do fulltime job in drawing path I find it's fun at very early state,because fulltime job you draw without financial concern much.If you're freelance illustrator.You have others thing to concern such as your cashflow eachmonth,your clientele.So,if you would like to happily working I recommend go on fulltime job path 'till you have experience enough to strike in freelancing path.
Life without a fulltime job can be scary and hectic at first time,if you didn't experience this before. I think for average people if you can find your own path,you can manage to stable in 2-3 year of operation with enough client list.
I think It's good that I can find my path already,in order to teach,like I said it's not about your drawing skill but it's communication skill
This years is important years because I being self-employ for 5 years.It's reach 5 years in march,which passing already.I've ever heard that if you reach 5-10 years mark in any business.It's mean you're survivor.
I face with major setback several times.Include admit in hospital 3 time in 3 years.I've question myself where is happiness and a lot of question about life seep through my brain. I even question about meaning of life.I wonder why somany bad situation happen to my life again and again.I question myself stuff like this.Even now I also question myself a lot of things.I still believe something happen to your life whether it's good or bad,happen for a reason.It can make you grow as a person.If you learnt some exp. and try to observe what universe try to teach you.Every 'action' will come with consequence or 'reaction' like physic rules.It's law of cause and effect and karma,but I never regret my path.
because what's happen to mylife fostering me to have today,with I discover myself and my way already.
I think it's quite hard for me already to goback to working in full-time job again because I prefer this path.It's path that I'm in total control and have full responsibility in my life.
In case you're now being self-employ or would like to take this path.I think it's not easy but If you can do it.It's open a lot of opportunity to your life and it will open your eye to experience how to deal with major setback when you doing your own thing.
So I hope you're all success with your life,no matter which path you taken.
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You will be surprise if you didn't use indiegogo before.it is crowd funding site.I didn't have much fund left to making it's available for international convention this year because printing cost is so high and I have few copy left for Thai postage order,I've sold out my stock for comic season already,and it need some fund to reprint for international order because I guess it isn't enough stock if I decide to go to international convention.So it will end up as using indiegogo,and I 'd like to test a water too this preorder successful I'd consider making my original comic project available by use indiegogo again.So this is important step and I need your support,if you can't support by fund,please spread word I will be so grateful.m(_ _)m,more update and video coming soon staytune
To order,it's easy just sign up at indiegogo site,click contribute in sidebar then you will redirect to PayPal to checkout and this is special because every order at indiegogo site will get a lot of special perk available if you pledge for preorder.
Milestone and Stretch goal 500$ goal reach Add new postcard from 5 to 7 design for perk g and beyond. 750$ goal reach add new postcard from 7 to 10 design for perk g and beyond. 1000$ goal reach add new postcard design from 10 to 15 for perk g and beyond. 1500$ fund raising goal complete for Thankyou I will draw new illustration And make it limited print for perk g and beyond. 2,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add full color tutorial and process booklet a5 size for perk g and beyond. 3,000$ stretch goal reach.I will shift from a5 size booklet to a4 for perk g and beyond. 3,500$ stretch goal reach.I will add pocket size of calendar,add more page to tutorial booklet for perk g and beyond. 4,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add plush doll keychain,add more page to tutorial booklet.for perk g and beyond. 5,000$ stretch goal reach.I will add Dust jacket. And slip case design for both soft cover and hardcover edition.for perk g and beyond. 8,000$ stretch goal reach.I will making 6 new art for calendar and making calendar available for perk g and beyond. 10,000$ stretch goal reach.Perk I oasis and up will recieve another random watercolor painting. 15,000$ secret need to unlock.I need to reach this goal first to tell you what you will get.
7/1/13 Update list of backer Thankyou very much for your contribute --------------------------------------------------------
Friederike vulpius /perk e magnolia James shay/perk I oasis Jessica du/secret perk Anna Tsocheva/perk b little flower Magion88/perk c full blume Amber Mclaren/perk f desert rose Britney sack/perk g bird of paradise
preview of artbook eisenblume,collect more than 160 illustration in 171 page,full color.There're personal work and commission work include.Beautifully layout.Available in comic season booth C14a in 23 dec,international and online order coming soon.stay tune There're limited edition like ever coming in bigger package,have t-shirt,notebook and postcard set.I'll get all the item after convention,so online order will after 23 dec.Please keep update on my journal to see whether it's available for ordering yet.
This entry is just relax post from personal life. It's almost end of years already so I think about new resolution next years. I think about balancing personal life,improve drawing and teaching
I complete my resolution this years ^^,by reading almost 40 business related english book.Stuff i read such as entrepreneur life,branding,marketing and related stuff.Althought it isn't my first language but I think my english kinda improve a lot this years.I finally can write long article.Sadly,my amazon kindle was out of order few day ago.;___;,use iPad to read is eyesore and glare problem.Amazon kindle is the best for ebook read.
I think I focus on my business-entrepreneur side this years and my business (teaching) going really well.I hardly update my deviantart page much but focusing on facebook page update which I update most of sketch there. facebook.com/meisanmui You can watching some unpost work there.
This years I didn't improve my drawing much and I hardly have time for drawing full-cg pic because I've to update illustcourse site,making teaching video in youtube and stuff.I manage to do less teaching schedule next years.This years my teaching schedule quite tight.I teach almost everyday. I hope I can focus on improve my drawing more.I've plan to develop my class also.
As you may know I being self-employ for almost 5 years. It's reach 5 years in march 2013. I being freelance illustrator for 2 years,then establish new site (illustcourse.com) and I earn steady income from teaching for 2 and half years At this point I think I will do commission work only work I really wanna do. For 2009-2010 I living by doing only commission from DA which I appreciate a lot,with support from you guy I've today.m(_ _)m
If you asking me how I can survive without fulltime job. I think you need to learn about business side of work, Such as how to deal with client,how to manage cash flow etc. In my case is very extreme case,I left fulltime job with some credit card debt, Which I paid for buying a lot of books.i got no financial nest egg but I can live.it's just you need to cut unnecessary expense such as cloth,cosmetic etc. Past few year I can paid bill,take care my mom and have some saving without financial concern already.
Stuff I learn these years is sometimes worst thing happen to your life happen for a reason.It's take you to better state and making you better person if you notice and working in what's life signal to you,just believe in your intuition.,don't worry and be happy and be better everyday ,a lot of great event will happen to your life finally.
I going to national book convention past week and get a lot of interesting book,one book I find somany years it's 'man's search for meaning' by dr.frankle.i've time that I feel really depress and asking myself question what's a meaning of life and I see some quote in this book that light my fire.So it's great that I can find this book already.
I think this year quite plain for me,no exciting event,and my life is being routine already,go out for teaching,go back home reading,go to running if have time in the evening,updating site if had time.
For some reason,I've delete some journal of mine,somes are accidentally deleted which I've to said sorry to all of you but I save some in my ipad.I really thankyou for your feedback previous entry,really appreciate for all comment so far really
and Thankyou very much for all comment and favourite past 9 years.I develop a lot because of you guy.Deviantart is great community and I can't find better word to Thankyou you all.This place also give me a lot of inspiration when I lack some.
I manage to do fullcolor artbook this years I 'll try my best to make it's available.Schedule to release art book is December this years in comic season event,more detail about preorder coming soon.
past time I've ever wonder that how could we measuring anyone successful? Honour?rich,Pride or any factor that we use to measuring success For me There're people ever asking me that. Do you think you're successful yet?.It's hard to answering this question because I success somany thing but I don't think I'm successful.
Success is subjective.It's depend on people. If you ask me,How could you measuring success. I've to question you back. What you really want in your life and what's the most thing you value?
My sister ever said about 'OSHO'.He's philosopher.He said that people who being president is like they climb the ladder higher and higher then they can't go further nor they can going down because they don't know what it's gonna end. so every successful people have suffering also,even president who's the country leader. That's why I believe successful didn't always bring you happiness,success is addictive you want more salary,higher position,some cool gadget,honour occupation,fame,house,car because it's 'success meter' That's how this world can translate what's successful mean. Then we believe that if we success then we're happy.
Past time I've ever believe, to feature in media,have my own pocketbook release. That's how I call I'm success. I've ever thought about featuring in more media,have more pocketbook release,owning house and car full of wish like other people. It's like I'm now walking in to the ladder with no end, I've ever thought If I'm more success,richer,then I'm happier. I value myself from what I earn each month I'm still hunger in success.Then one day I start to realize that I'm not happier. Then something wrong about my thought I didn't understand happiness quite well until recently.
I do less work. Do something I enjoy such as reading,writing,spend time with family in book happiness advantage said that people always misunderstanding that successful will bring you happiness, actually happiness will make you more success.
talk about happiness,then I've something to said about my work.I've ever thought about stop drawing comic because I would like to focus on illustration work,I've ever thought that comic isn't something I'm good at.
Finally,when I've got spare time I end up drawing some scribble comic because it's little happiness.I just thought that comic isn't something I'm really good at so I would like to stop drawing then my sister said "Why people think we should stop doing this or that,just doing something you feel happy is ok enough,isn't it?" There're some junior asking me this question also,whether she want to stop photograph to focus on illustration they I reply, no need to stop doing something because you want to focus on other thing because sum of it make you being 'you', you may be a photographer who really good in drawing,or illustrator who really good in photograph.
Late time I've time to considering about myself more. I do less work because my feeling that I've to compete with myself to be better is gone,I just wanna draw,wanna write because it make me happy,the joy when I'm being child comeback again. If you asking me. What's mean success to me. I'll answer 'having job that I love with stable financially,have some freedom to make choice,have time for family,got happiness and enjoy life when I didn't care about fame or successful, something I use to measuring success isn't a lot of money,big house,fancy car,designer cloth,or honour job but it's 'freedom' and 'happiness'
Different people have different meter to measuring successful. If you have more need,you will got high meter, you'll get tired to snatch those thing and didn't even realize where's happiness, we're all eagering to catch thing that symbol of being successful because we believe that we'll happy if we success, but true is the more you tied yourself with those symbol which is social meter for success,the more you attempt,like a rat who spining in a wheel didn't realize that if it stop running the wheel also stop.
If you'd like to success, you need to reset how to measuring success, it's not higher salary, higher position, big house being rich but settling at being happy in each day of your life, Easier you happy with yourlife,the more you success. Stop thinking that being rich first,have more fame,have girlfriend or boyfriend,got love back,get married then you will be success and then you'll be happy because those thing isn't always end up with happy,but bring suffering to you also,suffering from scare you will lost them someday,suffering from saving those thing to be with us. the day you stop chasing successfull is the day you being success,asking yourself you're running on some wheel or you stop already.
I've ever asking myself this question,when I feel very depress
The reason people depress because thing didn't go to be like they wish. It's because you've an expectation for something and you didn't get it.
I have some story to tell you. Which I heard from another source.
Once upon a time there've god of happiness gathering, They decide they want to hide happiness From human. One god said that 'we should hide in highest mountain so human Don't reach it.' another god said 'no,human will find it' Then another one said 'we should hide in deepest of. River. Another god said 'no,human will find it' 'then we should hide happiness in human heart' After that human who didn't know happiness is inside his heart Won't find happiness.
Most people are waiting for something in life to make them happy, Such as get married,got promote,being rich etc. I would like to said if you didn't be happy for today, You will not gonna happy much when you get those thing in life Because it just a 'condition'.if you waiting for condition To make you happy you have an expectation, And you depress when you didn't get it or lost it, Such as you're broke,you're fired,you lost someone you love Of course those thing will get people depress but My believe today is 'this too shall pass' Everything come to your life whether it's happiness or sorrow, There're not last long.it will pass finally.
There're 2 kind of happiness,outside and inside.
Outside happiness is materialize you can buy easily with money Such as new gadget,cloth,car,house etc And inside happiness which you can't buy, Because it's state of mind you have to fulfill it with yourself.
It's easy to be happy you just need to focus on happiness Inside yourself more than outside because it will make you Didn't Need to waiting for something or some condition in life to make you happy.
Just find something you love to do,someone you love To spend time with such as friend,family or spouse, Someplace you love to go,some music you love to hear, Anything that you love will lead you to happiness finally
So hope you guy can find happiness, If you can find just look inside yourself. It's something always with you but you didn't notice it.
Hello guy,I already have instagram account,you can finD me by account name meisanmui.I will post sketch and gallery there,btw instagram is photo sharing app for iPhone and iPad,if you didn't have you can view image in my Facebook page www.facebook.com/meisanmui
I would like to write some english here to brush my rusty writing in english. I practice reading a lot past time by reading novel,nonfiction english book. I read about 20 book english nonfiction book in 2011. Also practicing listening english clip. I aim that I will never use word 'poor english' in my dictionary again. So I disappear for awhile and I've another site to develop also[It's illustcourse.com] and that's alone very eating my time.
New year has passed.It's been so fast for me. My resolution this years is nothing much.I would like to develop my english to the level that I can use english naturally. You know,It's very hard for Thai people like us, because English isn't our native language. It isn't every day use so It's depend on how people eagering to develop their English,and something very stuck on my mind because I feel inferior everytime I see friend who use english as formal language,and I've got embarrassing time because I didn't understand english language well.
A lot of thing happen past years wish is valuable lesson,but I hardly drawing lately because I quite busy with teaching work. When I do teaching work I feel like my past time ambition in drawing was gone. It's not bad either because It's shift my world for working for myself to working for making student better,and lately I'm being more like an entrepreneur which I have to develop other skillset beside drawing like past time,and I see young budding artist and it's very motivate. A lot of young people this day are so talent.I gasp when I see their art some people is just in their secondary but their art are so awesome and there're a lot of energy in them.
I quite fullfill on my goal past year. I already release pocketbook and little explosure in Thai media because of my writing. Actually I love to write quite equal to drawing. It's just different form of art. Which I'm amazed because typo can make you cry or laugh, but like I said,my ambition like past time is quite gone. It's not that I didn't have major goal, It's just my own translation of word success is a bit change. I think about balancing life,freedom and family more.
I'm on self-employ for 4 years and this year,and 2011 are stable year of my life because I've got financial stability already[not that I've a lot of saving but I've stable income like being fulltime employee.] It's very long journey and I learn a lot.Althought I face with a lot of bump in my life,so many time I'm stuck in a rut, but It's ok now.I thought I learn to be happy in a little thing I do more,
I think I'll do less illustration work this year because I would like to develop others skill important[especially,english skill] Anyway you can see my sketch and doodling work at my facebook page. www.facebook.com/meisanmui thankyou very much for listening to my rambing.
My Flood maiden T-shirt available for international order
Due to severe flood situation in Thailand.I make special limited T-shirt for sale. 100% profit after minus manufacturing cost will donate to Thai Red Cross to help flood suffering people in Thailand. I will scan payment slip or proof after I donate.
Sorry for inactive lately I'm very busy with teaching illustration in Thailand. I focus doing less illustration work lately because I would like to have time for 1 illustration like I'm in full-time job.
After busy working on my manuscript.Finally the book already publish in Thailand. It's name 'ลาเจ้านายไปตามฝัน'.I'm very proud because It's first time I'm in 'writer' role which my dream,I do my own illustration in book which simple style not elegant,a lot line like ever but in comic-essay style. I practice writing by writing blog almost everyday past-time. Some have got feature in front page of exteen. <one of largest blog community in Thailand> So this book can release because editor saw my article and he like them.
It's 3 years that I didn't have full-time job and can live!without steady job from any publisher either, I've to thankyou Da friend which supporting my financially, buy print,book,commission me. I would like you to know I appreciate it a lot! I'll never go this far without your guy help. I admit I stuck financially first time I go freelance because I've got some dept to clear,but after a year past I learn a lot and It's ok.
Anyway It's far journey but short than I thought.
I have some major setback past time. Now my life is good.I've ever ask myself, after I face with setback in life.
I've ever ask myself,where's my happiness, I do work I love.I got a lot of free-time, I 've time for my family but I still feel something missing in my life. I read a lot of book about happiness.
Happiness is like success I think. We won't find it's if we want it, It will came when we feel we didn't want, and that's happiness,when you didn't want it you'll satisfy your current status, the word satisfy is equal to happy it's something always inside you.
For Thai friend,you can buy book in local bookshop. It's available in bookfriend store[siam inter multimedia publishing] meisanmui
I would like to inform you that.My B/W artbook 'AGNUS DEI' 2nd reprint available.Stock quantity is low. (Around 20 copy) You can purchase copy here. www.meisanmui.com/portfolio/bw… All book purchase on my site are sign.
As you know about Japan's tsunami&earthquake I gathering some fund to donate for Tsunami & Earthquake suffering in Japan, by doing this I will do watercolor commission. 100% of commission fee/5 slot available(total 250$) will donation for this.I'll take printscreen shot after donate and post here. All commission will donate to Redcross www.redcross.org.uk/japantsuna…
Each watercolor commission are 50$, (plus 12$ for shipping worldwide if you want) you will get full illustration painting,1-2 character(in 1 pic),waist up or fullbody Tool I use is whitenights-Sennelier-Holbein(artist grade) watercolor,Canson montval 300 gsm Winsor&newton Sable
SLOT 1. ีupdate I've already donate 50$(31 GBP) to british redcross site
2. I've already donate 60$(36 GBP) to british redcross site
note to me brief and attach reference link if you interest, and then please send payment to paypal address firstname.lastname@example.org, or If you want to DO-IT-YOURSELF donation.Please go to donate 50$ to donation site and send proof of donation by printscreen/save in jpg then e-mail me at email@example.com. If you want me to shipping your illustration then please send 12$ to paypal address firstname.lastname@example.org